Sunday, October 08, 2006
i gave myself a half a pat in the back
wednesday night, pops came up to me and asked for my time during the run... i happily replied 34 minutes. "hahatakin ka na lang namin" he said. unlike my fellow trainees, i was completely at ease with the upcoming 15k. i was more nervous with my make up for the stove operation than the run, i was aiming for the certificate. at that point i was 75-25 decided on not joining AMCI and gave myself till Friday to think it through. waiting patiently for some sort of epiphany. and it came..but 2 days a little too late.
mountaineering was never meant as a long term sport for me, it just came at the right time. i was seeking for something different, an adventure and it landed straight at my door. i wanted something to spice up my life..what better way to do that than to step away from my own element. my friends were shocked when they found out, but i was even more surprised when i found myself enjoying the whole thing...climbing walls, dangling in ropes and plants, sleeping in tents. it was all new to me. and of course, meeting different people is always a welcome experience. but not so soon after, the excitement slowly fade away... it became a routine. and the more i thought about it, the more i realized "maybe it just ain't for me". all these running and strenous activity is just not a part of who i am. i did despise these things once upon a time. not that i still do, but i don't think i'll ever "love" it.
but i am proud of myself, though a whole lot of people may disagree. i ran, or walk whichever you want it, that 15k not for anyone but myself. i finished what i started, i went through everything that i had to go through. that fading yellow line represented so much more than the finish line, it was the wonderful end to this beautiful adventure. i could have stopped at any time during the training, many have predicted that i would but i didn't. i jumped when they said jump, i climbed when they said climb and even if i dint run when they said run, i did 6 rounds when they said 6 rounds.
with tears and a smile i say to you AMCI people, thank you for the great adventure. and to the soon to be members, congrats and my humblest appreciation to all of you.
9:09 PM
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